I was raised mainly by my mom. And let me say that I wouldn't regret any moment of it. I love my mom with all my heart, I wouldn't be where I am today without her. She provides a lot for me, including a car, gas and insurance. And I'm so incredibly grateful for that, but at times I wish I had more than just her side of the family that I could rely on. My dad really hasn't ever been involved in my life. He never really has showed for sports games or really clues me in on information that relates to our family. At times it feels like I'm the last one he wants to tell about things because I haven't been able to do much because I'm always involved. I was a only child until 2009 when my half sister was born, and oh my god do i love her to death. But when she came along everything changed. I get that having a newborn means you need to pay more attention to the baby, but does that give you the right to completely ignore your other children? No, and sadly this is what happened to me. I was left out, felt unimportant, and always felt lost when around my dad, sister, and step mom. It got to the point where I never wanted to go over to their house because I felt I was such a bother that it would be easier if I wouldn't be there on the weekends I should have been. Until the point came to where I had not talked to my dad so much that he never even told me that he was moving, I missed family gatherings, and even my family's birthdays. It never made me happy to never be close with my dad. As time has gone by, we have began to get closer through things. He has made 6 games out of all my seasons of sports, and has tried to invite me to more things that happen on that side of the family. My dad and I had gotten into so many fights about stupid petty things and it only ever worsened until I ended up screaming at him and using fowl language because I never felt he understood how I felt about things. After I screamed at him, he had ended up not saying anything and just sitting there with a blank stare on his face, and that wasn't what I had needed. With this being said, I stormed out of his house and just left to cry in my car. We didn't talk for 2 weeks and after that we had cleared the air and he had a better attitude. He had apologized after that and now we are much better. I spend what free time I have with them, and he includes me on family activities. I just wish I could have been more involved with my dad. Because now it's still too late to have the full relationship with him every girl wants to have.
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